Would
you believe this bikini clad hottie is also politically active? Alana is dope
like that.Thursday, December
26, 2002
Drove back to SB today and made OK time. There was serious traffic in Oxnard
and Ventura. Then when I hit southern SB, I saw the parking lot on the 101 South!
I felt each and every person's pain. My plan was to get back in SB early enough
to get my hair cut. No such luck. It's all good.
Today was most remarkable because I am, hmmm, how do I describe this sensation…content seems to be the only close word. May be it was the time driving (LOVE to drive!) and/or seeing the family after a seriously long hiatus. Dunno what it was. Went to work with this Cheshire cat grin on my face. It was the first time I had been after being. Think I took like 3 days off. Anyway, when I came back one of our crew, Jen, had moved departments and I went over to talk to her for a bit. Like about an hour later, she stops and me asks why I was mocking her. It totally threw me. Then I got it. My facial expression was probably pretty smug or something because I was feeling so 'content'. And I told her and we straightened it out. She gets brownie points for her directness. I don't see that candidness in a lot of people, much less co-workers. That is to be respected.
Let me clarify something. There is a HUGE difference between candor and rudeness. The former entails calling people on stuff they do, but in a way that isn't offensive or attacking. The latter is when people just say whatever, however to get their point across and be damned the consequences.
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Wednesday, December
25, 2002
Being with the family is definitely better than being without them. It's kinda
cool. Still my West Coast family and my Virgin Islands family are really VERY
different sets. And growing up back home, anything else I do will be compared
against it. I miss home. At least I was able to kick it with my father and that
was dope.
Oh yea, they got a new house. The thing is MTV cribs dope! All it needs is like some marble swimming pool and it'd be there. We watched the Lakers and Celtics have their asses handed to them on a silver platter. Jason Kidd needs to be MVP this year. And the Sacramento Kings needs to make it to the finals. They're probably the best team in the West right now.
Stupid White Men, is just getting better and better every time I pick it up! Some of Moore's arguments are very generalized. Also you can tell that a lot of his opinions is based on East Coast, specifically, New York and D.C. experiences. Still it is very well researched and pretty damned funny. If all of the facts about Baby Bush's cabinet is true and the people who give these people money - I have no friggin' words! Do you know how many Enron ties are in there?? People on environmental committees, getting money from oil and car companies for cripes sakes!!
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Tuesday, December
24, 2002
For the last 3 days I've been sick as a dog. The only GOOD thing that has come
of it, is that my voice drops like 1.5 octaves and the whole Barry White thing
starts to go down. Oh fun for me, huh? I have no idea where it came from, but
I hope it keeps going on through my body as soon as possible.
The first few days my roommates weren't home were kinda strange. Finally figured out what it was: it was quiet. I love this! What have I been missing all this time? Don't get me wrong, my roomies are cool lot. And it was VERY fortunate that I found them. Still, knowing I can come home and do whatever and not have to wonder if I'm disturbing someone else is very very cool. Must have more of this. Today my room, the bathroom and parts of kitchen and living room got hands on attention. When I come back from road trips I like to come back to a relatively clean place. And call me hokey or whatever, but I really do like the smell of a CLEAN bathroom. Yes, as opposed to a DIRTY one haha! Something about the smell of those chemicals, just make me happy. Probably find out 10 years from now, that prolonged inhalation of scrubbing bubbles causes sterility or some dumb crap…haha!
Drove down to LA tonight to visit the folks. Stopped off at my father's office on the way to the house. According to him, he was doing to be leaving the office at "6ish". Let me translate that for the uninitiated: whatever my father ball parks for a time, you need to add at least an hour or 90 minutes. We didn't leave there till 8:23PM. Any questions? I didn't get there till 7 and didn't feel anyway about it cause I KNEW he was going to be late.
While at the office, I picked up the LA Times and reading through it. The damned sports section was missing!! Anyway, it occurred to me that there is some messed up shiznit going on in the world. I actually hate reading the paper or keeping current on events, because there seldom seems to be anything GOOD going on in the world. There was a Chief Justice of the Supreme Court, Earl Warren I think, who said that he preferred to read the paper back to front, sports to headlines, so that way he could read about man's successes first and then his follies. I like that.
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Monday, December
23, 2002
Today I said eff it and got out the house. It pretty much amounted to going
to the Barnes and Noble, getting a bite to eat, and seeing Star Trek Nemesis.
I bought a copy of Micheal Moore's, Stupid White Men, that a couple of my friends
recommended I read. It had me at the introduction! This book is going to be
bomb! Go pick it up!
Usually I am a die hard Sci-fi fan. Yes, I am a personage of colour AND I like sci-fi. Want to make something of it?? Haha! This movie sucked rhino balls. It would have been better if I had watched 3 hours of TNG, than going to seeing this damned thing. Talk about let down. At least the book is promising.
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Sunday, December
22, 2002
Oh joy, I'm sick. That just makes great journal entry action huh? Bleh! Ended
up staying in, resting, drinking all kinds of fluids, and eating Halls' like
they were candy. Interesting thought there. Is Halls' a candy, medicine or both?
Hmm…
Anyway, my birthday is January 21st. Hadn't realized that until Audrey called me up asking what I was doing for it. Thanks Audrey! That would be sarcasm. For the most part I don't think about my age or my birthdays, as they tend to come and go without much or any fanfare or fuss. This year may be different. Then again every year I say that! Haha!
Also occurred to
me that I'm about to enter 2003, leaving 2002 behind with all of it's tragedy,
drama, joy, et al. Ok, so I have a flare for the melodramatic so sue me! haha!
Food for thought…
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Tuesday, December
17, 2002
I've been hurting these days for journal fodder. Life these days is about school,
work and finishing school. Also about getting ready for life thereafter. That's
what's on my mind these days.
However some television tonight created some fodder for an entry. First off, how the HELL do the Osborne's get critical acclaim?!? Can someone PLEASE explain that to me?? I don't get it. The humor of the show is tied so closely to how absofreakinglutely dysfunctional they are! Jesus H. Christ! And I feel for Ozzie. I have no idea what's going on with him medically, but it looks pretty damn serious. The other thing that struck me, was the nasty guy Kelly was calling her boyfriend. The guy was smoking like a chimney and spitting everywhere. It was friggin' disgusting! Bleh! If people want to smoke, that's their bag, but I won't be dating anyone who smokes. Oh, yea no smoking in the ride or in the house. Bleh!
The other thing is poor Trent Lott. The Daily Show had an excerpt of a BET interview he did after his remarks. The BET reporter brought up a half a dozen affirmative action, voting and other legislation he voted against in the 90s. Boy, if he had done anymore backpeddling he would have gone all the way back to 1948!! The Daily Show was totally satirical with their coverage to date, but dammit they make some good points.
Trent, retire, throw some money at some causes and call it a day.
Would
you believe this bikini clad hottie is also politically active? Alana is dope
like that.
[playing, Missy Elliot - Work It]
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Saturday, December
14, 2002
Today was remarkable for a couple of reasons. First it started to rain!! Woohaa!!
Ok, what's the big whoop about rain? Haven't you heard it doesn't rain in Southern
California?? Mwhahahaha!! It's been raining and off and it is the best. We really
don't get a full on 'winter' with snow and all that. So when it gets cold and
wet (sometimes that combo works), I feel that! And WTF is up with people driving
when it rains!??! Does the rain wash away people's senses or something? I saw
so many close calls on the way to work!
The other dope thing was, after work I went to the supermarket to get some stuff. Then I ran into a checker whom I swear I know from some place. The kind of person look at and swear you know them from somewhere, but you can't put your finger on it. That's this girl. From the first I saw her in the store, in the back of my head, I went I know her from somewhere. God that sounds like a really cheesy pick up like, but it's so far from the truth. And after all this time, I'd never been in her line, but tonight I was. She looks at me and says, "do we know each other from someplace?" I damned near died laughing. We asked back and forth where we lived, how old we were, etc. and there were no common ground. Her explanation was we were married in a past life. I told her that wouldn't be so bad.
I am so stoked because as of tonight, I am registered for Winter quarter and everything is in place!
The
pic to the left there is one of those from the 'Scenics' in the Photo Gallery.
When I think winter, this is what comes to mind. This pic was take about 8 years
back, when Audrey and I went to Yosemite.
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Tuesday, December
10, 2002
It'll be a week tomorrow since the news. Talk about melodramatic. However that
is how I think of it. There's been little else that has been on mind. It has
preoccupied my thoughts in one way or another. Since then I've done a pretty
good of play the role like everything is status quo. Have done some stuff that
was frankly very dumb to get my mind as well. When something like this happens
though significance is lost when you ignore the consequences. Thank you to everyone
who has emailed or been in touch.
To that end I've made some personal decisions. Some of which will be revealed over time here. The next several months should prove most interesting, I should think.
One of the dumb things I did was get a bit too flirtatious with a girl. This girl, whom though I think is sexy as hell and fun and JUST a friend, gave the girl I actually DID like the impression that I was trying to hook up with her. Who knows if this is a situation that can be salvageable? I feel like a complete ass though. If I had to do all over again, that thing would have gone down way different or not have happened at all.
This incident and a couple of non-related other things sparked a discussion me and some friends. We got into talking about etiquette or what I've been calling 'interpersonal protocol'. I put this to a bunch of my friends in email, asking for their take and awaiting their response. Here is part of that email:
We all have concepts what we should and shouldn't do to either, save face, not look like a chump, be strong, not look desperate or conciliatory, etc. or frankly even to manipulate a situation overtly or subtly to get what you want. May be it's looking a person in the eye, giving a firm hand shake or not calling 2 hours after you got their phone number. My question to you is what are some of your rules, beliefs, mores, whatever about interacting with others. Be honest! If you got this email, it was 99.9% deliberate (hehe!), but your opinion matters. It doesn't matter if it's a platonic or romantic situation.
Example: something goes down and you talk to the person about if it's cool or whatever. Generally speaking, we will say, 'the ball is in their court'. How long is it in their court? Should you cross the fence and go to them? Or not? This is a very vague example, but hope you feel me.
If you have any
thoughts on this, email me. If I don't happen to know you, include your age
and gender. There seems to be differences based on these 2 things.
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Wednesday, December
4, 2002
I am writing this entry, admittedly, days after this occurred. I didn't have
it in me to write about events on this day any sooner.
Went to work and for lunch decided to do one of my new favorite things: having lunch at a park on the mesa. It occurred to me, since that there are these great parks near my job overlooking the ocean, why the hell should I have to eat inside, when less than 10 minutes away was a spectacular view awaiting?
This was the second time I had went out to this park to eat my lunch. As I was finishing it up, I picked up my phone and looked at it and started flipping through my phonebook, not quite sure what I was looking for. Then I stopped at my Aunt Avril's cell back home. Don't really know why, but it seemed what I 'searching' for.
Pressed send and made the call. Come to find out that my uncle's wife had died not 12 hours before back home. She was 26, a mother, well loved in the family and community. The news rocked me harder than I could have ever imagined. We talked for a bit, but then I had to go. I had convinced myself that, I could go back to work after hearing this, but it was happening. I kept loosing it all the way back to work. Walked in there and told my manager I had to go, and went home. Slept 14 hours that night.
Keep my family
in your thoughts and prayers please.
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